Even though I gained a lot of weight and hadn't lost nearly enough of it. And then this happened a year and a half later:

Although I was loving being a mom and breastfeeding, I was not loving being exhausted and overweight. But since I was afraid of injuring myself again, and because I was so, um, tired, I didn't exercise again. I've never liked exercising anyways... This is around the time we found out about
Avery's food allergies to milk, eggs, soy and peanuts. And I needed to adapt my diet as well in order for my breast milk to be safe for her. So I completely cut out all processed foods and all dairy... which meant no more cheese people. No pizza. No ice cream. No Chinese food. Not much of anything
easy, except fruit, veggies, meat and some pasta.
During the summer I took the kids on walks and for a couple of weeks I walked during my lunch break at work, but that didn't last long. It's really hard to get out of the office for that.
But after a year, a full year, I had tracked a weight loss of 20 pounds. How exciting! I can tell a difference from looking at those last two pictures above to these two from this past December 2009:

The fall was tough, I had gone up in the scale before I came back down for that total loss of 20 pounds. My grandfather had died, there was travel involved. I'm an emotional eater... like lots of women. But rounding out the year with an accomplishment of 20 pounds gave me confidence and it made me realize that I'm much closer to my goal. With 28 pounds more to go, I decided I needed to start exercising again and get a move on already.
I started doing yoga again somewhere around November or December. Starting out slow. I knew I wasn't going to burn a lot of calories, but it would help me feel strong again and more in touch with myself and getting physical. I really love yoga! I don't have time to run out to a gym, so I do it at home with DVDs. After a couple of weeks I was ready to start putting some aerobics into the mix. I borrowed some DVDs from one of my friends. It included strength-training with cardio and needed hand weights. Huh. That's like workout equipment!!! I did them for a couple weeks without hand weights... I'm a beginner you know. I alternated aerobics videos one day with yoga the next day. It felt like a good pace.
I had heard about the
30 Day Shred from other
bloggers and friends, basically the 30-something moms with baby-weight I hang with were raving about Jillian Michaels, the famous TV trainer from The Biggest Loser. It sounded really, um, hard.
But I was gaining confidence in my workouts and found myself buying hand weights when I saw
30 Day Shred DVD in the same aisle. It was only $10. I thought I'd give it a try. If you aren't familiar with it, the concept is that you work your ass off for 20 minutes a day for 30 days. The workouts are VERY intense. There are three circuits of strength training, cardio and ab work.
Now, a few of my friends have dropped dead after day 1 and never went back. I'm not judging. It's freakin' hard. If I hadn't already been working out for a few weeks, I would have died too.
Some people don't do it every day. I can understand that. But me? I'm the kind of person that needs a challenge. Once I make up my mind about something, I need to be disciplined and meet my goal. So the 30 Day Shred was exactly the challenge I needed. My first 10 days were all devoted to Level 1. I quickly was able to move from the wimpier modified versions to the full versions of the exercises after a few days of practice. I was nervous to move to Level 2 on day 11 for good reason - it's a lot harder! I'm hoping it will get easier as my body adapts, as it did in Level 1.
Here's the cool thing. It's freakin' hard, but it's fun. Remember I said I never liked exercise before? Yeah, well, this is working for me a couple of reasons. One is Jillian's personality. She's a bad ass and I love it. She can hold my attention and keep me going, and she says things like "I want you dying!" and "Your legs should be burning. I want you panting!" Ha! That's awesome! She's also really hot (good motivation to look like her) and I appreciate she's not blond. Really, I'm sick of blond aerobics bimbos bouncing around on my TV.
Results? Well, I'm only on day 12 of 30, but I certainly can tell that the shred is making a difference. I'm feeling stronger in various muscles from the weights. I've lost 4 pounds since I started (two pounds a week, which is pretty steady for me). I've definitely lost inches - I could already drop a pant size but I'm going to wait a bit longer before I go shopping.
I took revealing before pictures... but there is NO WAY IN HELL I'm putting them on the internet. Sorry peeps. But here's a pic of me, fully clothed, from Friday night. It's fuzzy from my cell phone, but I can totally tell a difference. At least in my cheek bones. ;) And yes, my hair is getting long. I'm getting it cut soon.

So, stay tuned for occasional updates. I need to lose 24 more pounds to get to my goal. I will finish the 30 day shred and then I plan to buy more of Jillian's DVDs to keep going.
For more info and support on the Shred, check out
The Shredheads blog and follow
shredheads on twitter. Thanks for your support and encouragement!